That Time Of The Month

This isn't a thoroughly detailed rant about specifics of my human anatomy. (I know right thank god.) This is about my PMS. (Pre-Menstrual Symptoms)

So I always know when my period is nearing. The week before, I start to freak out and get seriously irritated by everything and anything that gets in my way. I like to be left alone already without the inducements of thoroughly fluctuating levels of estrogen and progesterone. So imagine when my hormones are all wack and collide with my already unstable emotions. It's SPECTACULAR I tell you. (: and gotta admit, my friends really love it. (Haha in case you're not very bright, sarcastic tone severely intended)

And right now it's sort of really amusing me because once again my predictions prove true because everything seems to be pissing me off. (Usually I don't use the word piss or any other sort of conjugation of it because I think it is seriously ugly and full of low-breeding even if people that use it may not be lowly breed, it's just such an unattractive word both in look and phonetics) Yet, it is definitely so entertaining and comical to me.

When I say everything is pissing me off, I really mean it. Everything is pissing me off. And as I am fully putting my rant down onto virtual paper, my steam has been slowly releasing its self. (Again also coinciding with my ability to never be mad for too long of a duration)

My father is impossible. Hard to describe and I really don't want to get into it right now. I know in one of my earlier posts I mentioned my parental situation and that it was lacking in detail and that I would elaborate much in due time. But I never did, and right now I really don't feel like it. I have too much empathy and intuition in terms of vibe radar and it makes me feel a deep sadness and I'd rather prevent that for this moment. So maybe next time.

So I tend to pick fights with everyone and at times I find it so highlarious and at other times I feel really bad for my friends that have to put up with me. But it's okay because I am completely lovable and I bring the sunshine into everyone's lives. :D

I even accidentally bursted at my mother earlier today. It was a small simple statement, but I couldn't help it. It was like I couldn't control it because with family, you have to hold things in no matter what because it is your family. But I later did apologize and my mother being my mother understood.

I'm not going to get into the subject of my parents just yet because I don't feel like it and not to mention this post isn't about that it's about my full on amusement with my ridickulous emotions, but I will someday type it all out when I'm up for the contemplation and challenge.

**Yet Another Side Note 9:30p.m.
I feel like I'm sort of getting back my motivation for my need to articulate cleverly and loquaciously. Not to mention I have just written a fairly long email to a good friend that was completely filled with compelling innovation.

It feels kind of nice. I haven't had any sort of motivation for anything lately and it has been leaving me with a sort of emptiness in that department as well for the past couple of weeks. (You can even tell from my unsatisfactory and blandly written depressing blogs that are just filled with the very basic form and bare minimum of speech because I had barely any desire to do anything at all.

I felt that if I lost my desire for eloquent speech then something really must be wrong with me because it's one of my major passions. If you lose my passions, what do you really have left to keep you going? This is a good sign, maybe I'm finally getting my groove back. :D Haha yes I just said that suckaas.

And I'm feeling kind of good right now. Gyeahhh! (: