Okay SERIOUSLY NOW?

I'm just about to give up on mankind. fuck seriously.

So you know how I said today was supposed to be a good day? Because I was going to get some bomb tacos for dinner then follow up with a movie? The movie I've been waiting and dying to see for a month now? Today was supposed to be a good day, I went to class and was highly productive. I love feeling productive.

So I even picked up my friend and his house is out of the way, but I picked him up anyway and he's on his phone THE WHOLE FUCKING TIME. TEXTING. And making noise and reactions from his text. And I'm a nice person so I don't say anything and it's cool because I'm driving and I have my music anyway. So we get to the taco place and NOTHING. We're eating and he's just on his phone the whole time and not even trying to converse with me. What's the point of hanging out if you're going to be on your fucking phone the whole time! It's a fucking waste of my fucking time and breath! I even jokingly told him that he was being rude. And I'm a REALLY REALLY reasonable kind of person and it takes a lot to really really anger me.

So we're done eating and he's just on his fucking phone AND not to mention he's being an extreme dick to me the whole time when I've been nice to him! I can understand if you're being a dick if I was purposely being one too out of fun, BUT I WAS BEING NICE. And he's douchebagness was completely uncalled for and unrelenting.

I asked him to look up movie times and then well surprise surprise he "finds out" that the movies are around 9ish. WELL NO SHIT SHERLOCK. Where have you been for the past fucking decade?

Get this, he then has the nerve to say, "Can we watch a movie some other day? 9ish is late and I wasn't expecting to be out so late."
Okay, WHAT THE FUCK right? A dinner and movie obviously means that you're going to be out late. It's a fucking given. Anyone would know this if they weren't a fucking idiot or living under a rock for the past fucking millenia.

Funny thing is, THE WHOLE TIME while we were eating, I was ranting my ecstatic excitement to watch the movie NONSTOP. Seriously? COULD YOU BE ANYMORE OF A DICK? (Haha quoting it like Chandler Bing does)

So when I get angry for reals, I just keep quite. So I just resort to a simple, "Whatever, I'll just take you home." Did I forget to mention that his house was out of the way and that taking him home would mean backtracking for me? OH I DID MENTION IT.

I get to his house and he looks at me with this expression that makes me just want to fucking bash in his face. A facial expression that is obviously interpreted as a semi-smile that "maybe she's not mad anymore and that we can just laugh about this." Uhh WRONG ASSHOLE. GUESS WHAT I'M STILL MAD. And then I speak my mind about how rude he was, but of course not losing my composure and dignity. Then he says, "Some other day?" (Okay, really now? Why would I want to go out again in the near future with you or be wanting to at the moment when I am fucking furious?) So I just responded with, "Whatevers, just go." And his face changed from light to not and he got out of my car.

Seriously, I want to believe that there is so much more to the world than all this shit. I want to still believe and I still haven't stopped believing, but goddamn LET ME JUST CATCH A BREAK. I'm a good person, so much as when I even do good deeds, bad things happen to me. (No joke. For example, I throw something away for someone who is too lazy and then I'd step in gum or spill the drink on me instead as I'm in the motion to throw it away. Or I'd trip and fall. Just minuscule clumsy stuff like that. I'm so clumsy sometimes I hate it.) And I can't understand how people out there can be so cruel without it weighing on their consciences. The universe is so fucking twisted.

The good thing is that I never stay mad for too long, right now I'm not steamed anymore. I'm over it. Not to say it wasn't right, but I believe that there's no sense in dwelling on things that have already happened because they've already happened and there's nothing that can be done. I'm pathetically resilient. But I am who I am flaws and all. I am an imperfect person and hopelessly flawed. And right now I'm rather lighthearted. I'm feeling better after I've gotten my rant out. I like to get things out of my body and onto record because it serves to me as a way to not have to keep it in and keep remembering. Hah if that even makes any sense. Having it archived is a way of still keeping it without having to keep it on the back of your mind.

Start a new day right? And Thursday I will be going to one of my favorite places in the world, the beach, and then watch that movie!

See? I am trying to get out of my mood and be lighter. You can even track my progress from top of the post to the bottom. It's rather incredible. And I don't have class tomorrow so I can just be lazy. Hurray! (: I hope all of you had a lovely Monday.