What Else Is New

Empty. Nothing.

Bad

It must've been really bad this time. So bad that it couldn't wait, so bad that it didn't matter what hour it was. So bad to have been woken up by non-hushed tones. So bad that i immediately felt a horrible tone and vibe radiating throughout the house. So bad, that I know what they're feeling must be worse.

6 a.m.

Woke up to my parents arguing. Got woken up by arguing. They went out of town on business this weekend. Actually, it's not even arguing this time. It's just my mother lecturing my father because he obviously did something wrong. And he's just taking it because he knows he screwed up. This is even worse than a heated discussion; it's absolute succumbed and realized defeat. Which makes things the saddest cause of the condescending. Family and business should never come together. I'm glad I got out. But I still need to get completely away from this, I can feel the chains continue to pull me down. This never becomes easy at any age, I feel like a small child again, every time. Maybe I still am. At any age, hearing your parents argue is never comforting and always still unsettling.

My

My whole body hurts.

Can't Help

It. Feeling dead, nothing inside. Nothing but a huge void, a huge void of yearning- to feel something real again.