5 Minute Poem

Sometimes, I have to remind myself to breathe.

These permanent scars, I've left on my own sleeves.

Will I ever be free?

Will I never, not plead?

Tumblr

I found this today, and I had to share it, document it. It's utterly beautiful.

"I feel everything. From the bath water that’s slightly too cold, to the pain in that old man’s eyes as he walks through the street and wonders how he came to be so alone. I think such small and intricate thoughts; untouched blades, so dangerously sharp. These thoughts cut the deepest and yet a part of me craves to swim in a river of red. I want to watch myself bleed in the comfort of knowing I’m not alone and nor are the hidden droplets of life that no one else has thought to look for. That’s why shallow people are often so beautifully pristine - they are thinkers of common thoughts: blunt knives that cut no deeper into their smooth skin than the hands that caress their bodies. 

Lonely are the sufferers."

News

I went to the dermatologist yesterday because I've had a mass on my left arm for about a month now.

Turns out it's a benign tumor.

They won't know what it is until they take it out.

I'm getting it cut out this following Monday.

Wtf, universe.

I'm the statistic of all statistics.

I was feeling indifferent and fine until today. In fact I was laughing about it. I'm now sad, but why? I don't know why.

I'm so tired. All I want to do is sleep.

Sudden Inspiration

I love winter and everything about it. I love the sound of the heater on and the thick scarves that actually serve purpose of keeping you warm. I love the always a good idea hot chocolate and the beautiful twinkling lights of holiday. I love the television and movie themes. I love the smells and special musical ambience that circulates throughout the months.

It's a beautiful paradox. Everything screams warmth in contrast to, almost to counter, the harsh tangible cold season. It's as if we all need that bit of magic to give us hope to carry on, to see us through so we don't freeze all the way internally.