Life Of The Aquatic

So lately I have been having really vivid, random, and quite interesting dreams. I woke up today with a number of oddities in my mind. I like to google them and try to understand what they mean since your waking life is so completely tied to your subconscious.

I dream about the ocean, a lot. I dream about clean, clear blue oceanic waves. Not the yucky ugly dirty green kind we have in Southern California. I have dreams of when I am surrounded by them, swimming, yet never violently caught or stuck amidst- never having to fight my way back to wherever. At times saving someone from drowning, but I have never felt hopeless or helpless in the water, or even panicky for the matter. I have dreams about the sunsets, which always come hand in hand with oceans. I dream about the onlooking of the scenery- taking it all in, and I dream about walking on, or just barely above the water- hovering maybe. It's always the ocean though, always with the smooth and soothing current. I don't know, perhaps that's why I have such an affinity for water in real life and the ocean and beach. I'm so at peace when I'm surrounded by water- swimming pool or sea, it just makes me feel better.

Want to know the strangest thing though? I'm scared shitless of the ocean. And given just how sensitive my body really is, I get motion sickness like crazy. Hell, I even get motion sickness in cars with particular drivers. Pathetic, but in Hawaii, after kayaking for over an hour, I actually started to get motion sickness from the current. Yeah, lol. But to be honest, the currents in Hawaii are nuts because of all the various islands. Anyway, I mean the deepness of it. It's frightening. The current is a fearsome force and I am afraid of getting pulled in and drowning, so much that I won't be able to get out of it. I'm okay playing in it, but I have to be able to touch the ground, or else I freak out. I don't know why, but that's just how it is. But besides that, I love it.

The color (blue is my favorite color), the texture, the fluidity, just the way it feels, it's amazing.

I have dreamed about water my entire life. Ever since I was a child, I dreamt of sitting at the bottom of the ocean, but it was like a different world of smooth ground and clear and calmed surroundings, and maybe the occasional big chilling whale, that I often thought to be a shark as a frightened child, just chilling above me, but it was never aggressive and it never came never me, it just hovered above me. Looking back now, it was just a whale. And now that I am older, I dream above ocean ground level now. It's an odd thing, but a calming effect afterwards in my waking life. It's kind of beautiful. Lol, well that's my piece and peace for the day. (: