Long Time Coming Now Part Duex

Strangest thing. I find myself opening up, a lot more actually. And easily. (only to those I let close to me though) Revealing deep secrets I have so buried within me, like I have nothing to hide anymore, as if I am so completely ready and unashamed of my dark past and demeanor- I only hope in the long run I don't regret sharing, but at least I don't right now. I feel this warmth radiating from my chest. It's a good, positive and feel good warmth coursing through me. The kind you wish never to cease circulating through your veins. I perceive this to be a good thing and possibly part of the healing process? To get to the inside, I supposed you need to break through the physically exterior outside first. The strength of my own self-willed mentality actually surprises even myself. Pulling myself out of it, after this past year where I hit rock bottom. A low of all lows to be coined the term, rock bottom. I had never felt a low like that before, ever. Boy was it bad. But, I'm better now, so much better. I just can't believe I actually managed to pull myself out of it, time and time again- on my own accord of course (my stubborn self refuses to ask or accept help), at least for now. I feel like I am regaining my bearings again. I only hope this lasts, but with my emotionally borderline personality, you never know. But like I say, if at first you don't succeed, fucking keep trying. Here's to a real break.

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