You know that transitional period where if nothing happens right away that there's the sucky possibility of the initial spark dying? Because boring and mundane life continues as if the opportunity never happened and made affect.
Yeah, I'm scared that that might happen. I'm scared that it already has. I know, I need to stop being such chicken shit.
You said we would kick it after New Year's, so here's to hoping there's a follow through and that you're thinking about me just as much as I have been thinking about you.
Because, you know that would really be great.
(Which reminds me, I need to get your sweater dry cleaned.)
But,
I can already see myself trying to delete you from my mind/pushing you away out of self-preservation.
I'm probably thinking too much as I always do. (I really need to push harder on the whole trying to love myself thing. As you can see, it's not working just yet. I know I'm great, but I still don't see what other people see in me.)
Let's just hope I'm wrong about my pathetic fears because I want to know you.
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