Post-Birthday Aftermath

Through all the excitement and anticipation as well as patiently waiting for the date of my birthday to near, now that it has passed, I have to say, I'm a bit relieved.

Relieved to not have to plan or worry if my plans will be successful or if the bottom will fall out. (Since the day of birth is the only important thing to me rather than the extraneous plans during the rest of the week) Now all I have to think about it saturday. But even so, since I don't really care about saturday, I'm quite calm and comfortingly filled with nonchalance.

So my birthday was a great full fledged 24hrs filled with too many laughs, sun, and severely embarrassing yet hilarious laughs. And today my big bunch of clothes and new purse I ordered online came in the mail. What more could I ask for for perfection or bliss right? The passing of my 21st is quite a good one to be serious and this saturday will be the commencement party/kickback. It should be interesting. I really don't feel like having the kickback because I really don't care for it, the party is more of a formality that is supposed to happen. I'm also having it because I am told that if I don't have a big thing with everyone then I will regret it, so thus to prevent any remorse, the plans for saturday have been made in advance. I'm more so indifferent at the moment, but I know when saturday comes around my enthusiasm will increase and it will be great to see some great friends I haven't seen in a while.

Okay, so the real aftermath of my birthday. I was supposed to start work today to help out my family at the office, but as my alarm rang in the morning, I just couldn't. My entire body is sore and swollen and I feel like I really need to recover. Too much of a good thing is never good right? Too much of anything isn't good, yet we all love to indulge and be glutenous for we can't help our impulses and as for me, I am the very impulsive of the compulsive impulsives. Just lovely.

So my friend's bbq eventually turned into a drinking charade to celebrate my 21st and it was loads of fun. I'm not kidding when I say I really did experience almost the complete 24hrs minus 3 hrs for sleep.

And today I had dinner with the parents. I had told my brother in advance, but his priorities, mentality and ethos are very much different than mine. And thus when I texted him today he said that he had plans, though he did come home in the middle of our dinner so he did join us for a bit to eat his fill then quickly left for his room. (I know my current writings are are filled with run-on sentences, but at this point I really don't care because I write the way I speak and think. And I'm really not in the mood for grammatical acuteness)

I told my parentals a week in advance that I wanted to have dinner with them. (This is more so for them because of the big burden I feel that rests on my shoulders- the burden and family issues I have not yet divulged through blog yet, but in due time all things must run their course) I planned to make them sushi, but my parents work and don't come home til much later and my mother did not want to have dinner so late, so instead she brought home so basic sushi and we had a variety of food. Still a very good dinner.

Ugh even as I am typing right now, my entire body is swollen. I hate feeling bloated and puffy.

So my mood is meh right now with bursts of feel good from the music that seems to always heal me if only for but a second. I know this post is a bit mediocre, but I'm not in the mood. I just want to lay on my bed and veg out.

Tomorrow will be better. Start a new day I always say.