Once You Make Up Your Mind, It's Easy

Yeah. So I've decided that I'm over it. So over it.
And I'm going to ride it out as long as I can let myself.

I went shopping today again! You know you have a shopping problem when you wake up really early in the morning, when you never do that, just to go shopping. Haha.

Man this is turning out to be a great birthday! I love shopping. And today later on I'm heading down to Irvine again for some poolside bbq fun. Gyeahhh.

***Okay, So I'm kind of in the mood to talk about my thoughts.

So I started rreading Catcher In The Rye by J.D. Salinger and let me tell you, Holden Caufield is NUTS. He sort of reminds me of Jack Kerouac in a way that the thoughts are completely sporadic. I dunno, my mind makes weird relations. In anyway, Holden Caufield drives me crazy, just like Jack Kerouac in On The Road did with it's seriously superfluous random thoughts that digress off of eachother and then tie back to one thing. Seriously something you have to read over and over to fully understand. But then again for a person who underlines and writes in margins, I don't mind it so much. I like to be able to really understand what I'm reading so that I can make a better connection with it.

So what I've really been wanting to talk about was the book Paint It Black by Janet Fitch. I recently finished it and yes the book is horribly morbid and filled with thematics of death/suicide/despair, but again, those are the best kind of material right? So, if you haven't ever heard of it or read it, you should definitely do so. The book is so beautifully written with the fluid and scintillating imagery, but there's a quirk to it. Once you think something is beautiful, Fitch makes a point to smash that state of mind with a very profanic and blunt relation that is sometimes utterly disdainful and grotesque. But somehow it works. I loved it. At some point, the book got a little too eerie, but it's those books that really get to you. There are so many beautifully written phrases but I think the reason for the juxtapositioning of the very opposite of beautiful phrases is for Fitch's purpose to get the reader to understand the character better about the "true world." Really, the book is great. I've read her other book White Oleander and it's terribly great, but I have more of a connection with Paint It Black. (Again, narcissistic attractiveness yes?)