Ensuingly

And then, sometimes when the clouds choose to miraculously divide just for you, for that split second in time ('cause you know it's all about timing correct?), the striking and clear yellow goodness part of sunshine seeps through in small directed rays transmitting and transferring those moments of pure sun-kissed, sun-loved, and sun-perfected intoxicating and elated high spirit intertwined with light euphoric bliss.

These moments are the ones you continue living for. The just enough ones are to fuel perspective and keep you at bay, busy until the real moments decide to descend and make you feel like a complete fool for ever doubting. It's these moments that overcompensate when rough times ascend.

And that's all it takes to make life worthwhile again and to refuel on hope and faith for a better quality of life, to try and aid you in forgetting the bad in the past and allow for opening up and reciprocation of the new. Even for just a moment- that's all it takes.

This is the first Sunday in a long time where I have woken up smiling and butterfly filled (the best right?) rather than urged on the verge of tears. Thank you.
Maybe my closed off and pushing away, blocking out tendencies are beginning to dissipate.
And I ran out of my medication on Friday, but I never thought it was working to begin with. So huzzah to that lovers.