9 Part Duex, 9.2?

So, I didn't go to work again today. Decided to stay in bed again. It's a little worse than yesterday. I bought 3 pairs of shoes yesterday and had dinner with my best/blood (yes, we sort of call and consider each other either or, but never together, 'cause that would be.. weird.. mostly it's just best) last night. She helped me narrow down 6 pairs to 3- super fun. (; So that helped a bit. Seriously, if heels didn't need to be methodically broken in, I would wear them not just everyday, but all day and in every way. I'd never take them off I love shoes so much. You form relationships and attachment to shoes. (haha don't get me started, I actually explained off the top of my head last night about this to a guy friend)

Okay, but that's not the point of this entry.
So I was looking at my music collection last night and going over my older stuff that I've compiled these past several years.

I forgot just how much I used to love The Spill Canvas. I quite seriously had an affair with the first two album: Sunsets And Car Crashes & One Fell Swoop, my favorite being One Fell Swoop. I loved and still love how dark and 'emo' the eerie, yet so smartly worded lyrics were. And when mixed in with the soft and metronome-like soothing sound of their rhythm and melody, it created a different story for me. It just took me and kept me in their shielded world where nothing could touch me. You know, it's the little things.

I used to just listen to these two albums (so I was happy when they came out with a new album, but it had a different sound- you can tell, but it's of course still good) over and over and over again for months and months at a time, constantly plugged in everywhere I went. First in my car with cds- yes remember those? and then following with the first generation ipod mini -everyday at school, all the time- I received as a birthday gift in high school and then the technology fell onto quicker and more versatile times as I emerged my way into university. This however quite literally killed my favorite ipod mini because even after replacing the battery, it died. It was a travesty, when I would turn it on- it just would shut off, even with the battery fully charged. I couldn't do anything with it. But luckily I was bestowed an ipod touch as fortunate replacement.

I started listening to them in high school when they first made their presence into the media and they stuck with me until the first 1 and half years of university. I go through music seriously quite fastidiously; I find news every week if not daily. But this stuff, I was stuck on The Spill Canvas for years, in one of those states. Of course simultaneously listening to other stuff, but you know how it is. There's music that sticks with you and that you always go back to. Music that you form a special connection with, given that specific time and feeling emotion at that place in time and moment. There's music that you always go back to, your go to songs- therapy.

I forgot how much peace and bittersweet comfort listening to The Spill Canvas used to give me.
Some loves can last right?

Never have I ever wanted to much to be able to speak to an artist and discuss the thought and process, not to mention intention, behind the written lyrics.

I love them. They have this beautifully tragic violence in them that's graphically and crimsonly (yes, I made that word up, what what) appealing, but it's tempered and controlled. Their use of words in the lyrics are something that I respect because it's not so basic and 21st century easy lingo that is in most music nowadays. It's more perfected and old, but with a modern twist.

When I got into them, there was barely any information about them on the Internets, but googling them up now, I'm glad to have something to read.

Since it hardly seems practical to youtube all my favorite songs, here's a list. It's everything- listen to the hidden soft sounds, the music as a whole, the words in the lyrics and how it's used, listen to the tiny individual parts.

1. Teleport A and B
2. Secret Oath
3. Valiant
4. This is for Keeps
5. Self Conclusion
6. Lullaby
7. Staplegunned
8. Himeros and Eros
9. Bound to Happen
10. Aim Snap Fall
11. The Tide
12. The Night Will Go As Follows
13. All Hail the Heartbreaker
14. So Much
15. 3685
16. Under the Covers
17. Sunsets and Car Crashes
18. Charcoal Gray Above
19. Still Walking After You
20. Homesick
21. Lust a Prima Vista
22. The Dutch Courage
23. Polygraph, Right Now!
24, Natalie Marie and 1cc
25. Low Fidelity
26. Connect the Dots
27. Appreciate and the Bomb
Haha, I wasn't kidding when I said I love them. And those are just my favorites. Haha the entire One Fell Swoop is on there, oh how I love them.

Music isn't just the melody, the rhythm, or the lyrics. It's also how it's sung and how the words are spoken to fit and flow into the notes and beats. It's about the timed pronunciation and emphasis on chosen matched tempos and off beats. It pulls the entire piece together, it's everything. It's what hits and makes it count. It's what creates my light.

I seem to be feeling much better now. Downgraded to a numbing 8. Not bad. Nowadays it does seem like the only thing respiring me is music. But that isn't a bad thing at all lovers. I love it. And now for some more shopping. (: I should be out of this mood before the week is over. (god let's hope, please) Cheers, happy Friday.