The Art Of

Letting Go:
I'm re-learning it; trying to refine and perfect it. Inch by inch and string by string, I'm beginning to return back to my senses. Though I've still got about 65% to go, it's a going.

Pushing Forward:
Starting last week, I've jumped started myself quite well back into productive mode with the addition of a few new improvements. Life is awesome. And I feel great. (well, most of the time. but hey, take what you can, it's the little things right?)

Presently Applied Objectives:
Work, Gym, Study. And with occasional breaks. But mostly I'm keeping my head on straight. Or at least trying to with the not so graceful track record I have. With all the while continuing to work on improving my karma and just being an all around better person.

Current Thoughts and Conclusions:
And even though all these emotions and sentiments, thoughts and tribulations leave, come and go within a matter of days, I live through a million moments and feelings a day, so sometimes the shortest time span can in actually be a lifetime with the right motives and positive intentions.

I'm beginning to become proud of myself again as I once used to be. I'm beginning to accept the things I have done, the things I cannot change, and the things I should let go. More so, I've begun to entirely accept myself for who I am, the major klutz that I am , inside and out, and what I do- with certainty and clarity.
I don't want to lose control and become the slightest bit unhinged again. And yes, I do know that I will always have 'episodes' throughout my life, but rather than fight it, I've embraced it. I'm not going to be someone I'm not. I am just me.
I know my vices and my chemical conditions, so now I need to make the right thought out decisions and act accordingly if I ever want any chance of a near 'normal' and steady life without 'intense emotional catastrophes'. But what matters most is that you don't ever stop trying. And I'm glad I'm stubborn enough to never stop.