10.27.11

I have good days and bad days, clearly. Today was one of those days that leave me feeling so helpless and lost.
Such an emotionally draining day, It really took everything out of me. But part of it, my relationship with my parents is slightly better, for now.
And then the rest, all the crap that is going on inside me. It hurts and I can't breathe at times. And I feel horrible anxiety, you know, the kind that makes you think your heart is literally going to jump out of your own body and give out from exhaustion. Even when crying relieves so much, it still takes so much out of you. I feel so depleted. And despite all this pushing endurance of moving forward- it will never cease, I still want to stop and fade away, but I fight that and put it away everyday. I don't know what else to say.