Robots And Relapse

Everything is beginning to hit me all at once again. And I know this will continue to happen to me for my entire life. I think this was a long time coming now. It wasn't just one thing. It's never just one thing, although if only it were that simple. You wish you could pinpoint it on one target. Though most people already do because compartmentalizing things is the only way we feel in control. The human species is all about maintaining control or doing everything in your power to think you're in control. Human beings do whatever they can to combat the inconsistency the earth reinforces, they do everything in their power to find something to hold on to so they don't blow away when the earth turns. If you're lucky, you're part of the species who stay in the shallow end of the water rather than unhesitatingly leaping into the deep end like us dark ones. It's never just one thing, but it's always one thing that triggers the chain reaction of the storm. But there is no cure, not for me and not for us. We should all be so lucky, but I can't handle this right now. And I'm shutting down.