I feel like crying. I'm such a screw up, can't ever do or get anything right. And all I want to do is cut right now, but I can't because I already have so many damn scars and I 'promised'. What the hell was I thinking? What the hell do I ever think? Why do I have to be like this? So not normal. Disgusted with myself, I feel so trapped inside my own body. I hate being awake.