Family Bitch Business

In all of your eyes I will always be the same stubborn young teenager. You guys don't realize that people change constantly, especially someone as inconsistent as I. You unconsciously don't give an inch to understand that people evolve in more ways than one. And you guys will always hold the naive and ignorant past against me, never leaving room for improvement or growth, never trying to even want to get to know and understand the whys of the real me, the reasons behind the reasons- my passions (what is it about backwards Asian culture that refuse to advance into more forward thinking? it's such crap), and never realizing that your actions play too g

You don't seem to apply the understanding that everyone is different from each other, especially someone like me who is never the same person twice. I make known time and time again that I am fully and completely flawed, and still you manage to completely accept your absurd and continuous judgment of me being someone who is the complete opposite of who I am. What the fuck ever made you think that I thought I knew everything? Are you fucking kidding me? I'm a kid and don't you think I know that? Don't you think that I know how much I need to learn from the world and just how much I don't know from lack of certain experiences? Don't you remember how you felt at my age with everyone else's criticisms and judgments held against you? When do you hit that stop sign and suddenly forget and lose all that perspective and harsh experience? Yet, you always keep me at the same place in your eyes, never seeing someone who is different at every moment in her life, never seeing how far I have mentally and emotionally developed and how far I've progressed in perspective in life.

Why don't people ever stop to really think for themselves? Why don't people every want to really break things down as to try and understand everything that manages to slip through and fuck shit up? Why don't people ever take a step back to reassess their own lives and who they are?
I'll tell you why, it's because people are too chicken shit to find out the truth.

I'm not only always the outcasted black thinking sheep in society, but also forever a too forward angle looking alien in my own way conservative and traditional thinking family. The way I think and the way I am are too different from that population in society. Where are my kindred spirits who understand? I know you're out there, we're just all too far from one another for comfort.
I want out of this family.