i can't climb out.

9:12pm

alright calm yourself. self-preservation is doing work. thank you. and you can't check out and die because that would hurt your parents even more. and god knows you really don't want that. fuck, there's no way out. so the only thing you can do is wait in silence and numb yourself. until hopefully one day you can manage to breathe easier again, just remember to keep breathing. i can't imagine why any of you would want to read all this crazy crap i spill out. surely all this emotional rollercoaster riding was fucked up enough.