What

I've been feeling pretty okay for the past couple weeks (except sometimes at night, but that's normal and perfectly bearable). Not sad, not hysterically elated. Just normal. Which is really nice. Except right now I can't breathe. It suddenly just hit me. The sunken feeling creeping into my chest with resistance to dissipate. My chest fucking hurts. Quite unbearable, trying to shoo away the urge to cry. Wow. Good thing it's almost time for bed so tomorrow I may wake up for a new day with this hopefully gone. Everything always comes back to a full circle. Moment to moment though right?