Inconceivable

I don't even know where to begin and frankly, I don't really want to because the act of archiving these thoughts will make me relive the awfulness of it all over again. And I'm just glad to be past it and over it. I ended the night on a good note of satisfaction with myself. Very good indeed. Instead I leave you with my favorite Jay Chou song. (I never mentioned that I love him the most did I? Going on almost 10 years of pure and real love and dedication to him. I can talk on and on about what his music does to me, but another story for another day and time)

These loves of which never let you down and are always there for you, no matter what, last forever. <3


On the ground, a butterfly with broken wings
A full moon after the fog clears
It turns out that both love and heartbreak
Can be very detailed

Listening to the night wind blow past a few streets
Autumn, thinned down with fallen leaves all over the ground
Thus another night
Even sentimental words wither and fade

I don't want to write anymore, while I'm at it I rip up this page
It turns out that both the poem and parting can be without an ending (without an ending)
Languish, regrets, etc...these things

Thus I fold the poem up
Sending my feelings by post
Placed between a bunch of white roses
You declined it and returned that love back to me

I don't weep, I hold back the feelings
Breaking up during this windy season
I'll be tired after crying for a while, that's just what other people think
The cold coffee, I'm clearheaded, I get another refill

I weep, my emotions are in bits and pieces
Your world, flutters away scene by scene
The roses outside the door have thorns hurting people very directly
The past is glanced through, ending with a sky full of wind and snow

(translation/pinyin/lyrics by Ho@multistars.com, jaychoustudio.com)

Thank you so much. When all else fails and nothing else will do, I can just listen to your music and your powerful lyrics and just be in a better place.