Tension

I've come to realize that I don't handle tensioned situations well. Every time something gets too high strung or the air becomes filled with too much tension, I freak out.I freak out become my body picks up on energy levels and vibes, my empathy ratings go through the roof. The tension gets to great and then I become more than just flustered. I get flustered easily, a little it okay, but when there is a ton of impact in a room, that's too much. My body goes into a fight or flight mode and then I just react horribly with the sole internal intention of protecting myself. Some kind of major self-preservation metaphorical firmware storage I have. My body begins to feel completely attacked and I can't handle it. Triggers begin to form left and right. And therefore, I counter with some sort of heightened reaction to internally combat and maintain control the energy frequency of my own cells. But it all just transmits so badly to outside observers.

But it's just me. I can't deal with with tension filled ambiances pertaining to me, so I end up overreacting just to prevent the walls from further suffocating me. But this is just who I am. I've come to accept all of my flaws, physical and psyche related. I believe in constantly evolving, but I've come to accept the things I cannot change. Because there are certain things that are so deeply rooted in our DNA make up, so completely preexisting even before birth, that you will never be able to change. So rather than live in denial, you've got to accept them, or they will destroy you completely.