Not So Secretive Confession

.. Well, at least not anymore.

Haha, did I mention I was drunk while writing the previous post below? Haha oops, well I was. It's kind of miraculous how substances that create chemical reactions in the mind and body can kind of invoke and incite a higher progress in creativity. But then again, unfortunately, I am a firm believer that some of the greatest creations ever produced have been spurned from bodily altering substances for they are able to create an elevation of mind. Though my only vices in that area are solely alcohol and cigarettes. (If I may proudly state) I am all too happily content in my strong will and determination in the absolute refusals to partake in assumed other substances.

Yet, right now I am actually tempted to delete the previous entry because I absolutely hate ever showing my vulnerability. But I did say that I am trying not to censor myself and am striving to be more honest with myself. I say that with the greatest humility and am a bit mortified of my honest confession for I definitely would never say that to anyone if I were sober.

And thus there it is; the slow (and maybe the start) true revealing and unveiling of my inner self. The self that I almost always never share with anyone for my immense fear of abandonment and trust issues. This is the self that I keep forever to myself that resides in my own world because sometimes the only person who can understand the depth of it all fully is myself.

Hmm, how's that for honesty? Haha, I dare say a bit frightening. But what has ever been worthwhile that wasn't a bit frightening? Alarming factors are needed to excite accelerated blood flow to mark the significance of something that maybe have the potential to become something more.