On A Side Note

I think I may have lost the shining love from my father. (okay, I know he really can't stop loving his daughter, but for now it seems like it) I have definitely noticed a change from warm to cool from my father in his affections. All the fatherly gestures I have come to have decoded to be for love have disappeared. He barely speaks to me let alone even looks at me anymore. I have to say I am stunned and astonished at the same time.

It's only been two days. Wow.
I don't know whether to be shocked from the the temperature decrease or to be dumbfounded by the juvenile mentality of an almost 60 year old father.

Yep, really don't know what else to say. Practically speechless by the immaturity and quickness of how things happen. Is it better to have affecting arguments with your father of whom you have never had a relationship with? Or to have him always absent for half of your entire life?

I think this is an all time new record for destructive personalities even for me. I really don't know whether to laugh at the ridiculousness of the behaviorial situation or to be hurt. Because to be honest, I don't really think I am. Just a little butthurt from the attention lost I suppose; it's a pretty standard emotion for anyone to feel and it'll pass.

But let's not ruin the Happy Friday yeah? Because eventually it'll pass and things will return back to the way they once were. A comfortable and steady mess.