Uhuh

Sometimes I truly believe that the only thing that can save me is music. Right now is one of those moments. I don't want to do anything anymore. (Like serious recluse style) I don't even really feel like being social though I do have many social opportunities. I'm just not feeling anything and I don't know the reason why.

All I want to do is stay in bed all the time and for it to rain. I'm feeling kind of meh and I have no idea why. Or it could be just that mid-quarter slump and me having a mad case of senioritis. I haven't been going to my classes regularly and I've lost momentum as well as motivation. Tired of this routine and already ready for this quarter to be over. Bleh. I also am completely procrastinating on my essay but I have plenty of time to do that for it is due tomorrow by midnight.

For right now I just feel like lying on my bed and listening to music. Usually when I am at home, that doesn't happen very often unless I am soaking in the tub after a long and rough day. But right now, I don't know. I must be in some sort of mood; I just can't pinpoint it yet. But I know the only thing keeping my spirits from plunging into an endless abyss right now is music. Oh and the smell of the autumn air doesn't hurt either if you're just that lucky enough to catch a gust of it that makes the smallest moment beautiful. Is it weird that that is one of the things I love? The certain way the air smells sometimes? For that fleeting second, the true world reveals itself and things become simpler and clearer again just long enough for my self preservation to work a bit overtime to keep me sane.