Holy shit.
What a difference 10mg makes.
Is this what life is "Supposed" to feel like? On a regular, normal, basis?
Is this what everyone else has felt their entire life?
Because I have never purely felt life this way before. (i mean it's sort of like the upper from ecstasy because of the serotonin involvement, but never this sober and without paranoia) Like I've just awoken for the first time in my life and my senses are all working as they should be. I can't even explain it, it's as if everything has become suddenly so tangible. I can feel everything better, I physically feel like pain has been lifted.
My fingers even feel tingly from the bodily euphoria.
Depression seems to be literally all I've ever known as far back as I can remember since childhood. There's always been that shield of fog negatively sheltering and handicapping me from life itself.
Even still when I'm laying in bed, stuck with insomnia, left solely tracking my bodily feelings.
Exciting.
Beautiful.
Too good to be true.
Creative.
Capricious.
Yet, Peaceful.
Not completely hopeless.
Internally, too good to be true?
Shit, I better not be manic right now.
I hope this doesn't give me any poor consequences.
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