I never want to go back to southern California.

I'm not worth shit. And you just made that even more evident tonight.

I told you I was unstable and hurting, and you still abused it. I would have never done that to you. 10 fucking years. Fuck you.

You want to know why women feel like worthless pieces of shit? It's because no matter what they do, men will always treat them as such. Fuck you.

Make me feel something, anything, other than a dead emotionless nothing inside.

Low

So, low.

To

To fully heal and not feel any sort of pain anymore would be a wonderous thing. To want to actually live, to not utterly hate myself, now that would be an accomplishment.

Self reminder*
Breathe. Let it go. Breathe. Repeat.
You're better than this. Karma.

Forget Them

Forget them all.

I am by no means a feminist, but it's disgusting the way society has shaped males to treat, view, and talk about women.

Self Reminder*

In with the good, out with the bad.
Inhale, exhale. Deep. Repeat if necessary.

Don't let little things bother you and ruin your good feels. It's too easy.
Repress and ignore the bad. You are not your failures. Be kind to yourself.

How can you expect me to be emotionally available if I come from two emotionally unavailable parents.

Beginning to really realize how emotionally unavailable, in life, I really am. But to be honest, I'm not sure if I mind. It's easier this way to not feel anything that's of my own.